• vyana.novus

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  • Photo by @realfunwow during our weekend trip to Cinque Terre // . One of the ripples of having Complex-PTSD is hyper vigilance. For me, this feels like everything inside my body gets wound tightly into my head. Everything sounds more intense, everything looks more intense (sometimes it’s difficult to see), and I become hyper aware of my surroundings. It’s an extremely exhausting state to be in. Every sound feels like an earthquake in my hollow body. Everything feels like an attack. . Though I love traveling, the imprint trauma has left on my body can make it really difficult. This past weekend in Cinque Terre I had some particularly difficult nights, but it’s moments like these that show me just how sharp my tools have become. . I’ve been working with the phrase, “I choose to stay in my body” for awhile now to help me realize when I’m dissociating, and this weekend I expanded it to add “here and now.” It’s a seemingly simple addition, but in a hypervigilant state it was actually super fascinating. . Saying ‘here’ felt like a luminous piece of film running through the midline of my body. Saying ‘now’ felt like a web interconnected breath between me and everyone/thing in the room. . That feeling of interconnection helped me unwind myself back into my body and drift off to sleep. . Little moments like this, turning curses into blessings, feel like a major victory. . Top: @biasindia Bag: @treefairfax Wrap: @fanmdjanm Handmedown pants @buyfrombipoc #buyfrombipocchallenge . #notlookingforadvice #cptsd #travelfamily #thetraumaalwayscomesalongtoo
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    Photo by @realfunwow during our weekend trip to Cinque Terre //
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    One of the ripples of having Complex-PTSD is hyper vigilance. For me, this feels like everything inside my body gets wound tightly into my head. Everything sounds more intense, everything looks more intense (sometimes it’s difficult to see), and I become hyper aware of my surroundings. It’s an extremely exhausting state to be in. Every sound feels like an earthquake in my hollow body. Everything feels like an attack.
    .
    Though I love traveling, the imprint trauma has left on my body can make it really difficult. This past weekend in Cinque Terre I had some particularly difficult nights, but it’s moments like these that show me just how sharp my tools have become.
    .
    I’ve been working with the phrase, “I choose to stay in my body” for awhile now to help me realize when I’m dissociating, and this weekend I expanded it to add “here and now.” It’s a seemingly simple addition, but in a hypervigilant state it was actually super fascinating.
    .
    Saying ‘here’ felt like a luminous piece of film running through the midline of my body.
    Saying ‘now’ felt like a web interconnected breath between me and everyone/thing in the room.
    .
    That feeling of interconnection helped me unwind myself back into my body and drift off to sleep.
    .
    Little moments like this, turning curses into blessings, feel like a major victory.
    .
    Top: @biasindia Bag: @treefairfax Wrap: @fanmdjanm Handmedown pants
    @buyfrombipoc #buyfrombipocchallenge
    .
    #notlookingforadvice #cptsd #travelfamily #thetraumaalwayscomesalongtoo

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helloashleyberry - Ashley Berry 1 month ago

I relate to this so deeply..I don’t name it often and sort of forget that my baseline is a little different than that of most people, but travel is a big trigger for me as well and has been so challenging for me..chipping away at that slowly and gently and have found resonant breath to be so helpful in moments where I am feeling highly activated or anxious. Sending lots of love to you on your journey. 🙏🏻💗

softpathhealing - soft path healing 4 weeks ago

I️ can relate to this so so much. Feeling safe in our bodies and surroundings is a privilege. Mantras help me too. “It is safe to be in my body” is mine. Wasn’t always (and doesn’t always feel true) but usually in present time it is. A slow process of bringing myself back, noticing the pull to leave, what I’m leaving. Finding new ways to keep myself safe. Thank you ever so much for sharing.💛

thirdstandard - Dana 4 weeks ago

Thank you, I also live with with PTSD and hypervigilance. The hypervigilance was a good thing in my job for a long time, now I'm retired it has taken over a lot of parts of my life. I have been working with a therapist who has really helped. But I don't have a mantra, or afirmation yet. 🙌 To you and making the changes you need to for a great future.